The Light In My Shadow
Where Medical Insight Meets Yogic Wisdom on the Path to Healing
My Story: Living with BPD, Bipolar, Manic Depression, Complex Trauma & Suicidal Ideation
In this raw and vulnerable episode, I open up about my journey living with multiple mental health diagnoses—how they’ve sabotaged my relationships, fed my addiction to emotional pain, and kept me spinning on a merry-go-round of trauma and shame. I explore how these shadows became constant companions—sometimes seductive, sometimes suffocating—and how I’ve slowly, painfully, but purposefully learned to face them.
Through the healing lenses of yoga and Ayurveda, I’ve begun to untangle the web. It hasn’t been easy. It’s been messy, teary, and filled with setbacks—but also breakthroughs. If you’ve ever felt like your mind was working against you or that your pain had its own personality, this episode is for you.
“Unless we heal the wounds that shame creates, especially wounds from childhood, we carry this crippling shame into our adulthood…” This is the work. And this is my truth.
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Ep:50 Embracing God Consciousness Part 2. There is No Running Away from Yourself.
Mental, emotional, physical, and economic well-being has skyrocketed over the last few years, and recently, it seems the weight of the world is falling on many more shoulders. Some are still stuck within their own mind like a twisted fun house at a carnival without knowing the way out.
Ep:49 Embracing God Consciousness Part 1. Outer Depends on Inner.
A sensitive topic but one of great growth. I open up about my journey of Christianity and how it led me to the awakening to Higher States of Consciousness through the liberation of breaking the “Christian” paradigm. God-consciousness is a union of how we come to live without conditions. This is the first part of this particular journey and next week we dive even deeper.
Ep:48 Attachment is a Function of the Mind. Discovering Liberation through Higher States of Consciousness Part 1.
We are attached to the role, therefore confining ourselves in a cage with the gate wide open. Driving ourselves into silent suffering to remain a representative of what we thought we needed to be and not allowing ourselves to evolve into what we are becoming…
S1 Ep:47 Understanding the Four Levels of Intellect
These are not four separate entities. They are simply four levels of functioning of the mind. Hence, we may refer to them altogether as the mind, the mind-intellect, the mind-intellect-ego, or the mind-intellect-Chitta-ego. They all refer to the same thing. (Mukundananda, 2014) In order to be able to use it as a friend, it is important to understand the mind’s nature. Our mind operates at four levels. In this episode, we dive into what those are.