The Light In My Shadow
Where Medical Insight Meets Yogic Wisdom on the Path to Healing
My Story: Living with BPD, Bipolar, Manic Depression, Complex Trauma & Suicidal Ideation
In this raw and vulnerable episode, I open up about my journey living with multiple mental health diagnoses—how they’ve sabotaged my relationships, fed my addiction to emotional pain, and kept me spinning on a merry-go-round of trauma and shame. I explore how these shadows became constant companions—sometimes seductive, sometimes suffocating—and how I’ve slowly, painfully, but purposefully learned to face them.
Through the healing lenses of yoga and Ayurveda, I’ve begun to untangle the web. It hasn’t been easy. It’s been messy, teary, and filled with setbacks—but also breakthroughs. If you’ve ever felt like your mind was working against you or that your pain had its own personality, this episode is for you.
“Unless we heal the wounds that shame creates, especially wounds from childhood, we carry this crippling shame into our adulthood…” This is the work. And this is my truth.
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Season 2 Ep: 5 How I Am Facing My Inner Child and Addressing My Unhealthy Patterns
Welcome to “The Light In My Shadow,” a podcast exploring the intersection of integrative medicine and yogic wisdom. I share my journey through Borderline Personality Disorder, depression, and chronic pain—illuminating how evidence-based practices, Ayurveda, and yoga offer pathways to healing, resilience, and reclaiming light from within.
Breaking the Cycle: Releasing Repressed Emotions & Stopping Abuse "Releasing repressed and suppressed emotions toward our ‘original abusers,’ and learning strategies for dealing with anger and stress in more constructive ways” (Engle, 2023, p. 15)
This is where healing begins. In this episode, we talk about the uncomfortable truth: stopping abuse, whether we are the victim or the abuser, requires deep self-awareness, courage, and compassion.
We explore what it means to: Walk away from emotionally or physically abusive relationships. Acknowledge past pain and how it still echoes in our present. Recognize triggers and develop assertive, healthy responses. Rebuild self-worth, especially when it’s been stripped away
Season 2 Ep: 4 Relationships with Borderlines, Patterns that Begin with Emotional Dysregulation
Welcome to “The Light In My Shadow,” a podcast exploring the intersection of integrative medicine and yogic wisdom. I share my journey through Borderline Personality Disorder, depression, and chronic pain—illuminating how evidence-based practices, Ayurveda, and yoga offer pathways to healing, resilience, and reclaiming light from within.
Breaking the Cycle: Releasing Repressed Emotions & Stopping Abuse "Releasing repressed and suppressed emotions toward our ‘original abusers,’ and learning strategies for dealing with anger and stress in more constructive ways” (Engle, 2023, p. 15)
This is where healing begins. In this episode, we talk about the uncomfortable truth: stopping abuse, whether we are the victim or the abuser, requires deep self-awareness, courage, and compassion.
We explore what it means to: Walk away from emotionally or physically abusive relationships. Acknowledge past pain and how it still echoes in our present. Recognize triggers and develop assertive, healthy responses. Rebuild self-worth, especially when it’s been stripped away
Season 2 Ep: 3 How Self-Sabotaging Behavior and Emotional Abuse Trauma Ruin Every Romantic Relationship
Welcome to “The Light In My Shadow,” a podcast exploring the intersection of integrative medicine and yogic wisdom. I share my journey through Borderline Personality Disorder, depression, and chronic pain—illuminating how evidence-based practices, Ayurveda, and yoga offer pathways to healing, resilience, and reclaiming light from within.
Breaking the Cycle: Releasing Repressed Emotions & Stopping Abuse "Releasing repressed and suppressed emotions toward our ‘original abusers,’ and learning strategies for dealing with anger and stress in more constructive ways” (Engle, 2023, p. 15)
This is where healing begins. In this episode, we talk about the uncomfortable truth: stopping abuse, whether we are the victim or the abuser, requires deep self-awareness, courage, and compassion.
We explore what it means to: Walk away from emotionally or physically abusive relationships. Acknowledge past pain and how it still echoes in our present. Recognize triggers and develop assertive, healthy responses. Rebuild self-worth, especially when it’s been stripped away
Season 2 Ep: 2 How I Am Facing My Inner Child and Addressing My Unhealthy Patterns
Welcome to “The Light In My Shadow,” a podcast exploring the intersection of integrative medicine and yogic wisdom. I share my journey through Borderline Personality Disorder, depression, and chronic pain—illuminating how evidence-based practices, Ayurveda, and yoga offer pathways to healing, resilience, and reclaiming light from within.
Emotional abuse has quietly destroyed my sense of self—and my relationships. It's not just words. It’s a non-physical form of violence that uses control, humiliation, degradation, fear, and isolation to dominate another person.
(Engle, 2023, p.6)
This episode explores how emotional abuse leads to BPD, Depression, Bipolar Disorder, Complex Trauma, and Suicidal Ideation. We unpack the hard truths, name the patterns, and begin to understand how deeply emotional abuse can shape our behaviors and beliefs.