The Light In My Shadow
Where Medical Insight Meets Yogic Wisdom on the Path to Healing
My Story: Living with BPD, Bipolar, Manic Depression, Complex Trauma & Suicidal Ideation
In this raw and vulnerable episode, I open up about my journey living with multiple mental health diagnoses—how they’ve sabotaged my relationships, fed my addiction to emotional pain, and kept me spinning on a merry-go-round of trauma and shame. I explore how these shadows became constant companions—sometimes seductive, sometimes suffocating—and how I’ve slowly, painfully, but purposefully learned to face them.
Through the healing lenses of yoga and Ayurveda, I’ve begun to untangle the web. It hasn’t been easy. It’s been messy, teary, and filled with setbacks—but also breakthroughs. If you’ve ever felt like your mind was working against you or that your pain had its own personality, this episode is for you.
“Unless we heal the wounds that shame creates, especially wounds from childhood, we carry this crippling shame into our adulthood…” This is the work. And this is my truth.
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Season 2 Ep: 1 I Have BPD, Bipolar, Manic Depression, Complex Trauma, & Suicide Ideation.
Welcome to “The Light In My Shadow,” a podcast exploring the intersection of integrative medicine and yogic wisdom. I share my journey through Borderline Personality Disorder, depression, and chronic pain—illuminating how evidence-based practices, Ayurveda, and yoga offer pathways to healing, resilience, and reclaiming light from within.
In this episode, I open up about how my diagnosis has shaped my life, wrecking relationships, feeding a painful addiction to emotional chaos, and becoming the root of my suicidal ideation. My Shadow isn’t a stranger anymore; it’s a part of me I’ve learned to sit with.
Through yoga, Ayurveda, and deep inner work, I’ve found a way to navigate the darkness—with patience, honesty, and a whole lot of tears.
“Unless we heal the wounds that shame creates, especially from childhood, we carry them into every part of our adult lives.”
S1 Ep:61 Doing 1 Percent a Day to Achieve Your Goals. Back to Basics Tips to Achieving Your Health Goals This Year
Let’s begin with the four key principles that kickstart our year or mid-year goal setting. Be patient, be kind, be strong, and be free. These are the keys to success in reaching your goals. In this episode, we discuss this in-depth and go over tips and tools on how to get started to reach our first goal in one week!
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S1 Ep:60 Spiritual Wellbeing through an Ayurvedic Lens. Aligning the Mind and Body with the Spirit.
Moving meditation is a combination of linking breath to movement within a conscious effort. It is a state of being rather than a state of doing. In this episode, we explore the method in which moving in alignment with breath nurtures a state of transcendence which prepares the mind and body to enter into meditation through yoga. This is the place where one connects to oneself. Listen in, and see how.
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Ep:59 Mental Well-Being is Aligned with Physical Well-Being Mental Health and Physical Wellness Tips for Healthy Mind-Body. Mental Health and Physical Wellness Tips for Healthy Mind-Body.
Learning the importance of mental health and how it impacts the physical strength of an individual along with the reverberation of said energy into that around you. How does the Law of attraction work? Is it true that what we think is also what we become? We dive into this and more in this episode.
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